• Motherhood

    I Am More Than Just A Mother

    Two years ago, I became a mother.  It was one of the best days of my life.  From the moment I stared into those little boy’s eyes, my world was filled with so much love and joy.  I love being a mother and I know this is what God intended for my life.  However, I am more than just a mother and I feel that over time I have forgotten that and lost a little bit of who I am.  I am a mother, I am a wife, I am a friend, and I am me. Life pre-babies, I used to love spending time with my family, hanging out with my…

  • Anxiety

    A Victory Over My Anxiety

    “Overcome anxiety by building faith in your ability to overcome uncertainty” This past weekend we took the boys to the zoo.  If I’m being honest I have avoided taking the boys out in public or on family outings because of my anxiety.  We all know how difficult it can be taking small kids out.  The thought of it would make me panic and sweat.  Different scenarios would play out in my head.  I could see the boys having epic meltdowns and peoples eyes burning into our souls.  I imagine forgetting something really important like the bottles or pacifiers.  I fear something happening to Jackson like if we turn away for…

  • Motherhood

    Thank You For The Gift I Never Knew I Needed

    “I didn’t give you the gift of life, life gave me the gift of you” The day that I found out I was pregnant with Jackson is one that I will never forget.  It was unexpected and filled with emotions I didn’t know I would feel.   My husband and I got married at the end of August, and shortly after getting back from our honeymoon, I began to feel sick.  I was nauseous and had to pee all the time.  I went to the doctors because I wanted to figure out what was wrong.  I took a urine test to determine if the cause was one of two things:…

  • Baby

    Birth Story Q&A

    “Birth is not only about making babies.  Birth is about making mothers-strong, competent, capable mothers who trust themselves and know their inner strength.” -Barbara Katz Rothman Hi guys!  Welcome to my birth story!  Well, not my birth story, but my boys!  I thought I would do this a little differently and do it Q&A style.  This way I can talk about both boys labor and delivery experiences 🙂  So here we go! Did you go into labor naturally? With Jackson I was induced at 38 weeks due to a condition called Cholestasis.  I hated being induced and prayed that I would never have to be induced again.  The labor was longer…

  • Motherhood

    Season of change

    “The only way to make sense out of change is to plunge into it, move with it, and join in the dance” -Alan W. Watts One thing I love about where I live is that I get to experience all four seasons.  As one season begins to end, I gear up to embrace the new one to come.  Much like the changing seasons, I am about to enter a season of change of my own.  I am getting ready to transition from a family of three, to a family of four.  To be honest, I haven’t quite embraced it like I do the changing weather.  Don’t get me wrong, I…

  • Motherhood

    Finding Joy in the Simple Things

    Today, as I watched my son freely run around and play outside, I was reminded just how important it is to find joy in the little things. Lately, life has been getting me down.  I often wonder when things will start to “work out” for us.  My husband and I live away from family due to his job.  That was a really hard change for me.  I have always been extremely close to my family.  My sister is my best friend.  So, not being able to go over and hang out with my family whenever I want to has always been a struggle for me.  Aside from distance, we are…

  • Lifestyle

    FALLing in Love

    To say that fall is my favorite season would be an understatement.  What’s not to love about fall?  I love the smell of the crisp air, comfy knit sweaters and knee high boots.  I love the beautiful changing leaves and pumpkin spice everything!  Here is a list of reasons why I love fall! 1.FASHION Fall fashion is my absolute favorite.  Over-sized knit sweaters paired with leggings is my go-to.  I also love myself a good flannel and a pair of boots.  Knee high socks are also a staple for me.  I just love the cozy feeling of fall clothing!  They are perfectly comfortable  for cozying up on the couch, but also transition…

  • Motherhood

    What I wish I knew

    There are so many things that I wish I knew before becoming a mother.  Sure, everyone tells you its a really hard job.  There are a lot of tears, a lot of sleepless nights, and a lot of diaper changes.  Here are some of the things I wish I could have told myself: 1. There will be many tears shed–and most of them will be from you.  Motherhood is so full of uncertainty.  The baby cries and cries and you have no idea why.  The baby won’t sleep, which means you don’t sleep.  You constantly feel like you’re doing everything wrong.  Mix all of that together and you are just…

  • Baby

    Life with a “refluxer”

    Before having your baby, everyone tries to prepare for the hardships to come.  The sleepless nights, endless feedings, lots of poopy diapers, and crying.  All babies cry, right?  I knew within the first few days of having Jackson that something wasn’t quite right. When I would feed Jackson, he would often gag on his milk.  When I would burp him,  he would make this strange noise and then start gasping for breath, and then immediately cry.   This wasn’t your typical “I’m hungry, tired, or fussy” type cry.  This was different.  My baby was in pain and I knew it.  Jackson would cry all day long, and the only comfort…